From Foodie to Fitness....
But even after I saw my sister compete I still wasn’t really sold. I knew what to expect because I saw her go through it. I saw all the foods she couldn’t have at the end of it and how much time she had to put in at the gym. I thought I could never do this because I love food way too much. Anyone that knows me knows my love for food! But then something changed and I wanted something more. I was tired of the excuses I gave myself. I wanted to challenge myself in every way possible and I knew competing would do that. My sister was the first one to tell me I could do this. I was shocked at how confident in me she was. I talked with her about it and told her my worries mainly about the food I know I wouldn't be able to have. But then she said, it's not like you won't ever have the foods you love ever again. And I realized she was right. It would only be for a period of time where I couldn't have what I wanted. Right then I knew I wanted to compete not only to see myself physically change but also to see my mentality change. I needed to do this to prove to myself that I could. To be able to shut up all the negative things I kept telling myself. From there, I went to an Elite Heat Comp prep workshop and learned everything I needed to know. I told Tiffany’s coach, Malenna I was ready to compete and the rest is history.
Doing this competition was never about me winning against someone else. It has always been about winning against myself. When I get on stage, I don’t care about what the other competitors, judges, family, friends, coaches think of me. The only thing that matters that day is what I think of myself. That day is for me to realize how much hard work I put into this, waking up at 5:00 AM to do fasted cardio knowing I am not a morning person, lifting after work, spending hours in the kitchen making meals for the week, eating the same bland meals every day, not being able to eat foods that I enjoy, all the social events I couldn’t attend, staying in the gym for 3-4 hours to get all my workouts in. It was about all the challenges I dealt with on a day to day basis that tested my discipline and dedication with how badly I wanted to do this. I wanted more than anything to be better than the person I was before.
This journey has not only made me a better person but it
also gave me confidence about myself that I needed. Comp prep was everything I
expected and more. It did exactly what I wanted it to do. It has challenged me
in every way possible from the food to the workouts. I look at what I have
accomplished and what I have learned about myself through this process and it
truly amazes me. I learned that if I want something bad enough I will do
anything to get it. I’ve learned that I am stronger than I ever gave myself
credit for. I am disciplined, have the drive and focus to accomplish whatever I
want in life. It has made me a more confident person and believer in myself. I
couldn’t be prouder of the person I am becoming!
The one thing that will always stay with me is what I have
been telling myself from the beginning of this journey is I am my only
competition when I am on stage and even more so when I am off. Nothing can stop
me from what I want to accomplish but me! So, in my eyes, I am already a winner
no matter the outcome because I did everything I said I couldn’t do and more.
That to me is priceless and worth more than first place. I am so happy and
grateful I decided to do this and can’t wait to make my debut on stage!!